Tears

I cried...
When I was at Amma's
Reading about her charitable works
Simultaneously moved
By both the tragedy
And the goodness
In the world
And when sitting in the darshan line
Not really feeling anything
When -
Tears out of nowhere
Attached to no thought in particular
Also after my first hug
Maybe my 60th in total
When an altogether new response
The urge to curl up foetal
Pull my hood over my head
And weep uncontrollably
For reasons my conscious mind knew not

I also cried in Greece
Three times
Unexpected tears
At a glimpse of
The Temple of Zeus
In Athena
Weeping, maybe
Not just for 'the birthplace of Western Civilisation'
But its fallen pillars
Suggesting, perhaps
That this is also where it died
And then on the road to Delphi
Hitch-hiking randomly
'Losing time'
Going nowhere
Cursing my decisions
My indecisions
My lack of rides
Worrying over those I would not meet
And how to find them
And then
The sudden glowing remembrance
Of all the mad
Stupid
Random
Times
Wrong turns
Mistakes
That led me to Dave
To Mexico
To the Canyon
To Shawn
And Shane
And John
And -
God, how amazing is and how much this Universe loves me!
How lost I thought I was
And yet I was ever on my way

I cried too at Delphi
Staring at the spot
Where the Oracle once sat
Similar reasons to those in Athens
Tears of sorrow
For the passing of the age of oracles and gods
The material world
That has taken its place