In my head, I'm a pretty cool and sorted guy. But in reality I seem to be a bit of a loser. So much of what I think I am is based on past glories, on who I am when travel. It's true, I find life in the modern world much more of a challenge than when I'm living on the road, somewhere awesome like Mexico. And maybe it doesn't suit me after all. But the fact of the matter is, this is where I am, for now, and I've got stuff to do. And I've got to better while doing it. The path of least resistance is all very well to a certain extent; that's easy. But effort and motivation and working hard to attain to the things I want...is a whole 'nother biscuit.
Even typing this, I have no idea if I can do it. Maybe when I get to Herne Bay, get myself settled in and create something of a routine...I have to remember that I've just come back from six months of travelling, and come back as a whole new me, and, yes, it might take a few weeks for things to slot into place. That's the other thing: I'm so used to having everything correct itself almost instantly - life on the road once more - and it just doesn't work like that when we're talking a long-term goal. So, take it easy, boy; little by little. You quit the chess yesterday; you're gonna have a go at being less compulsive as far as email and facebook goes today, and maybe getting out a bit more; and tomorrow...? How do you fix a life? How do you eat an elephant?
Little by little.
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