Eggs hatching

Well I was a good boy last night and didn't put a move on/let myself be seduced by my good friend/ex-lover. That's the thing - she's a good friend, and just because I don't have feelings around these things - you know, quite happy to say that, hey, this is a fun thing two people can do together, like going bowling or something - doesn't mean that other people don't have. In a nutshell, I thought it would probably mess with her head. And I base that on several times previous when it has indeed messed with her head. And caused her to get angry and upset. And to stop speaking to me for months and months and months. Which, I suppose, messes with my head - and we're right back at the proposed theory (which I haven't proposed here) that everyone acts selfishly and it's all just degrees.

So instead I went 'home', got into bed, and succumbed to a pretty awesome blowjob. Damn, I'm getting a bit explicit here! Enough with the sex talk already. :-)

I think I might put ideas of books aside. I think I might start several blogs on some of my chosen topics and go with that, see how they develop. Sounds good, no? And then we can get the enjoyment and the expression and not have to deal with any of the pressure and disappointment. Let things grow organically, that sort of thing.

Today I thought I might go to Leeds and stand in the street and try and flog people my book; it's one of the ideas I was well into a few months ago but now seems a bit silly. I suppose the truth is I'm scared of standing there appearing foolish. And also of falling foul of street trading laws. Fear! Aha! We all get it from time to time.

I think I'll go make an egg sandwich and think about what to do...