A list of things to do...

So I fancy a write – not a Sunday kind of, get-it-off-your-chest write – but a sharing of some of the ideas and thoughts that have come to me this past week, since I re-rentered the world of 'internet blogging' (as it's come to be known – and am I alone amongst old skool 'online diarists' in hating that word 'blogging' or, as I suspect, do those of us who were doing it ten years ago feel that it just ain't the same as it was 'back in the day', that it was somehow more real, more cutting edge, more anarchic back then? I suppose, honesty, we're just a little less special now there are several million of us…) Anyway, the thing is, what writing on the 'net does for me is somehow cathartic, somehow liberating – and it affects my actual, real life in quite interesting and unusual ways. Maybe that's the way it is for everybody; certainly it is for me. Journaling/blogging/sharing here ain't just about connecting with others/making new friends (he says, fingers rushing down throat), it's about moving my life on, expressing (pushing out) my thoughts and turning them into words – and then turning them again into deeds. It's not even really about having it read – although, of course, I do like that, and probably check these silly comment things as compulsively as anyone – but it's about having a space to release the myriad fish-words that are constantly swimming around in my head and giving them here to the universe – and in that, somehow, as if by magic, in wonderment, miracles are made. It's always been that way for me. It's like my own personal, dream-come-true, really-does-work wish jar…

And so, with that ill thought-out and poorly composed paragraph out of the way, I thought I might make a list of the things that it has occurred to me to do of late. To whit, A List of Things It Has Occurred To Me To Do of Late (In No Particular Order):

1. Tidy my bedroom (50% done)
2. Get out more into greenery (the last 3 days running now!)
3. Sell some surplus bits from my car (just uploaded onto eBay)
4. Stick a saucy video of me – yet to be made – on yuvutu.com
5. Investigate doing an MA in Creative Writing (begun first tentative steps)
6. Play my music in front of a crowd more regularly
7. Record my best songs really well
8. Trim my beard
9. Plant my magic onions
10. Stick all my uni writing together in one nice, ready-to-print-out booklet, called 'Rory writes! The University Years' (Oh, how cheesy!)
11. Wean myself off internet Risk (no game since Sunday! Wahey!)
12. Look into getting some sort of certification for spiritual healing (NFSH)
13. Find a nice place to live (somewhere near Leeds?) (Though seems less important now that I'm getting more green and less comp…)
14. Sort out my woman/mother issues (Some headway)
15. Play squash
16. Fix my bicycle
17. Write on here (Various lists; various recaps; various thoughts on the future; whatever else occurs to me)
18. Rehearse for Countdown (should be on within the next few months)
19. Get myself organised, workwise (because even though I'm jolly good at selling – takings up about 35% - my bureaucracy is shoddy to say the least)
20. I think that's about it

And, you know, typing that it seems, really, I haven't that much to do. I guess that's the beauty of making lists. For weeks now I've been walking 'round thinking, I've got to do this, I've got to do that – but when I set it out in black and white there's not really anything there. How amusing! How strange! And, sure, a little bit embarrassing, because it's not exactly interesting – and I guess I could just leave it here, in Word, un-internetted, but I won't – but, hey, I think it just might have served it's purpose! Even just actually thinking about writing this stuff up here has made me start doing it!

Have I ever told you how much I love to type? :-)